Apt. I304

     Well, I have officially moved out of my mother's house (again) and in with my boyfriend, Nick, and his best friend, Preston. I love it here! We live at "The Bluffs", which is only about 5 minutes away from where I lived before. It's a 2 bedroom with a huge bathroom and decent sized kitchen and living room. You can tell on the outside that the apartments are a little older, but they're very nice on the inside. It's so cute! Especially with all our awesome furniture that we got for FREE! There are a lot of cute little kids that are always playing outside and our neighbors, the ones that we've met seem nice, too. Although, the people below us don't seem too crazy about us. The floors are so thin that apparently even just walking from one room to the next keeps them up at night. And they were not shy about letting us know of that. Oops!
     I really do like it here. I love that its fairly close to just about everything. We live by two different highways, so nothing is too far away. I love that I cut off about ten minutes of my commute to school. My new job that I'll be starting next week (hopefully) isn't far, either. I love having a place that all our friends can come hang out at anytime they want. And above all, I love that I get to be with Nick everyday and wake up next to him every morning. :$
     As of right now, my flare-up has gone away and I am feeling much better! Hopefully, it stays away this time *knock on wood* I REALLY want to focus on getting school over and done with. Not that I don't love it, I've just already been there for over a year. The faster I get done, the faster I can move on to the next school and get my career going! Sometimes I feel like going to hair school was a waste of time. I truly do not want to do hair. I expected to learn much more about make up, but what can you do? Maybe someday that knowledge will come in handy. Also, had I not gone to that school, who knows where I would be right now! I wouldn't have convinced my mom to go back to school (and she is SOOO happy that she did), I wouldn't have moved back to Riverton, I wouldn't be with Nick and I wouldn't be sitting in my cozy little apartment writing this blog entry. It all happens for a reason! Life is so funny that way. Sometimes I'm not as good as reminding myself of that as I should be, but it is the truth. True, shit happens, but you wouldn't have anything good in your life if it didn't. And that's the truth! 

Until next time.....

Why Am I Still Awake?!

     Well, I can officially say that the past couple of days have been pretty miserable. I have had a headache that, for the most part, hasn't gone away. I've hardly been able to touch food without feeling nauseous. I've been completely exhausted, and very emotional. I often forget that this illness isn't just about the physical pain. Some days I feel like an emotional wreck, which can actually seem worse than the physical symptoms. I feel like I need to apologize to everyone who has been around me in the past couple of days, and even to the people who may cross my path in the days to come. I'm sure I've not made the best company.


     I really am trying to stay positive. I can't exactly control when I get sick, or how hard it comes on, but I can control how I react to it. Sometimes it's hard to stay in that mindset, but I am determined to do it. Not only would it help me, but I'm sure my family and friends don't want me constantly whining about how sick I feel. Even though it can be really hard not to   :P


    Next week I'm planning on attending a support group that is put on by the Utah Lyme Alliance. I'm really looking forward to that! I'm not exactly sure what to expect, but I am really excited to meet people that know exactly what I am going through and understand.


     I have to admit, I'm sure getting only a few hours of sleep every night isn't exactly the best way to take care of myself, so I am off to bed! Until next time....